Hello. Have you had a rough day? I offer you this video of an owl riding a turtle. You're welcome.

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It's a great day 🥲 #inauguration #newhope #madamvicepresident

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podcast!

https://anchor.fm/ontherox

I'm thinking "auditory blog."

We'll see.

Be safe out there, but don't be silent.

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My heart is so heavy.

I touched on this a couple days ago, but it's been weighing on me. 

Watching the video of George Floyd's murder (and that's what it clearly was) was gutting. I do not understand how anyone can watch that footage and not be devastated, angry, and horrified. If you weren't affected by it, I question your humanity. 

Admittedly, as a white woman, I can't claim to understand how it feels to be discriminated against because of my race. Putting my license and insurance info in my visor so I don't have to reach for anything has never crossed my mind until recently--that's white privilege. Every time something like this happens--and it is entirely TOO often--I get sad, I sign a petition, I donate money...but then I move on. 

But nothing changes. So many innocent people have lost their lives needlessly. Being black shouldn't be a death sentence. I don't know what more I can do, other than stop being silent.  THIS IS NOT OK. WE NEED TO CHANGE.  

A white kid (I know his name, I just don't want to acknowledge him) murders nine people in a church. Police not only arrest him peacefully, but get him something to eat because he's hungry. George Floyd was accused of using a fake $20 bill (which turned out to be real) and resisting arrest. What I saw was a scared, restrained man begging for his life. The car doors were open--WHY WAS HE NOT SITTING IN A CAR? Thankfully, the cop who killed him was finally arrested; but that's not enough. 

White people in Michigan protesting because they need a hair cut? Give 'em a break; they're good people. Black people in Minneapolis protesting over yet another needless innocent death? Thugs. 

Colin Kaepernick tried to peacefully make a point. He was absolutely right. I don't want anyone to get hurt, but maybe now people will listen. TOO MANY PEOPLE HAVE DIED. WAKE UP. PAY ATTENTION.

Yes, all lives matter. No one is saying they don't. But if you break your arm, do you want someone to say well, all bones matter. Well, your arm is broken, so the focus needs to be on your arm. We need to focus on black lives right now, because the justice system and health care system don't seem to think they matter. 

I see you. 

I hear you.

I am saddened and outraged for you. 

I'm trying to educate myself and be better and more aware. 

I won't be quiet anymore.

You absolutely matter. 

#blacklivesmatter

Spoke too soon.

So I guess where I owned it before and let it lapse, it's causing issues in getting my site back up and running.

I'm being drawn to start working for myself. I'm going to start looking for proofreading clients and hopefully start practicing reiki. It's scary, though; I need to have more confidence in myself.

I'm so saddened by the state of the world. Watching George Floyd be murdered and the cops responsible only be fired? I just don't know what to say. I wish I were shocked, but I'm not. Much like school shootings, this is our normal and we NEED to change it. 

I've signed petitions and whatnot, but I don't know what else I can actually DO.

Love and light to all; we definitely need more of it in these dark times.

got my domain back!

Lots has happened since I last posted here. Will be reviving roxannarussell.com (thank you, stimulus check) and hopefully my future endeavors will be successful. ❤️