Wednesday, December 18, 2019

Triggering my crazy

So I'm not a completely batshit insane person...most of the time.

One thing that will trigger my crazy, though? If I feel dismissed or ignored. I think it goes back to childhood. I rarely felt heard or seen, so it's festered and now I go a little crazy if I don't feel properly acknowledged. 

It's irrational. I know this. Life happens. But my brain goes ham on my rational side.

I'm working on a lot of things about myself, including this. It's hard to reroute some long, hardwired beliefs. It will take time. 

But at least I do acknowledge my flaws and shortcomings and try to work on them. 

I've said it many times before and I will say it again: I'm a work-in-progress, and I always will be. There will always be room for growth and change. 

I guess the point of this is just acknowledge me if I do something or say something. It will save me a lot of mental anguish. I would appreciate it very much, thank you. 

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